2013 / 2014

A new year has begun once again. Time flies, it's February already. I can still remember sitting for SPM just 3 months ago. And now i am studying in college and fearing the SPM results which will be announced in March (most likely 20th March).

2013 has been a year with ups and downs for me. Some happy, some unhappy moments. I bonded with some friends and most probably ruined one friendship. I would admit that I may have made some cruel decisions during the past year but unfortunately, that is my character. I may be easily shaken at times but i stand by what i strongly feel is right. The past few years in my high school life has certainly changed me in many ways, in ways that i've never imagined. I know that i certainly have became a mentally stronger person with greater self confidence and dignity.

As i mentioned earlier, 2013 was SPM year. I don't think I have done very well for SPM and truthfully, i am TERRIFIED of what my results will be. Too many people with high expectations on me, it can be quite pressuring. But what's putting the most pressure on me is truly just me, myself and I. I can't bear the thought of having less than 9A+ because that would mean losing the opportunities to A LOT of scholarships. So I am just praying for the best. 😓

2014 hasn't really been kind to me either. Don't know if it's just me, but i certainly feel more stressed up this year. Maybe it's because of college, i don't know. I haven't exactly been the patient girl who could put up with a lot of crap like I used to be. I think all that crap has finally taken its toll on me. I am getting angry easily these days. Bad sign. Sigh.

So, yesterday was Valentine's Day. *yawns*. Helped to sell roses, chocolates and cookies for ALSTAR ( A Level Student Ambassadors) event yesterday. We are raising funds to organize a Senior's Appreciation Dinner for the ALSTAR seniors. I was actually supposed to watch movie with a few friends yesterday (Journey). It's a Cantonese/Mandarin movie but there were only front row seats left. So we ended up not watching and I ended up going home earlier feeling super tired.

That's all for the day. Goodbye :)